Oops. Forgot I had a blog.

It just occured to me, that unless you are on Facebook with me, you have no idea what's going on in my life. I have become a Facebook addict. It's just so much fun to hear little snippets about what people are doing, day to day. I have been posting one or two sentences about my days. (If you are on, and want to connect, click here).

So, if you are only reading my blog, you don't know...

1) I finally had surgery on my foot. It turns out that the pain I was experiencing was due to a calcified growth on on my fascia, rather than just an inflammation. It took a long time to figure it out, but it's done now. I'm using what they call a "walking boot" to protect my foot while the stitches heal. I am looking forward to going back to full activity in a few more weeks.

2) "Looking forward to..." is a HUGE understatement. I CANNOT WAIT to be able to jump and dance and go on long walks again. Yesterday would not be too soon!

3) We are preparing to move to Lake Charles, Louisiana. We lived there from 1998 to 2004. J & R were born there; A was conceived there. Suffice to say we have some history there, and I am really looking forward to being settled again. There are a number of communities I can be a part of, and that makes me happy. Also, some of the schools have French language immersion, and I am exploring whether that is a good option for the kids. I hope so.

4) I am now the mother of a 12 year old. And I haven't seen him since he was still 11. I sent the older boys to Colorado to see their grandparents and go to summer camp. They left June 5, and don't come home for another week. I miss them a lot. (Though the house is quieter & less chaotic).

5) I am working on my book on organizing again, and exploring what it means to be have a professional life again. I have put up a Facebook page just dedicated to bringing my professional self out of hibernation. (Click here, then click the "Like" button at the top of the page).

6) I am also doing my best to explore the world of social media. I learned at my industry conference that email is going the way of the fax machine, as people are connecting directly via text & messaging services (like Facebook). I've got a lot to learn, but it's keeping me busy.

Well, I think that's the general update for now. I'll try to remember to post more often.

Also, today my best friend's father is in the hospital. Even though I hear he is doing okay, adding extra prayer never hurts. If you've got some to spare...

It's official.

T's job is in Lake Charles, Louisiana. We'll go house-hunting the weekend after next, and will move as soon as we find a place.

I am not 100% enamoured with the move - but we could do worse. I will be happy to have a home & a community.

Already I have reviewed & confirmed there is Jazzercise, a Yoga Center, and at least two people I remember from living there previously.

Happy Father's Day

Hi Dad,

While it is not unusual for me to forget to send a card, and as far as I can remember, I have never purchased a tie for you, I DO want to make note of the occasion of Father's Day.

Whether "hands-on" parenting was part of your repitoire when I was growing up or not, I definitely remember you BEING there for me. I am lousy at remembering any particular moment of my childhood where you were actively involved, but there has never been a moment where you weren't around either. What I remeber most is that you were (and are) PRESENT in my life.

I remember at M&Y, when the video of Bucky played & he spoke of "loving comprehensibly," totally understanding what he meant. Always in my life I have comprehended your love. Always I have understood that WHO I AM is okay.

About ten years ago, when I studied with a metaphysical teacher, I remember having a vivid understanding of the gift you are to the world. The work that you and mom do is clearly your part of Tikkun Olam. I remember being awed by the generosity of your spirit.

Even though you present yourself as sardonic and irreverent, you get the bigger picture. Being one of the two people in the world who get to call you "dad" (every day) is one of my greatest joys.

I love you. Happy Father's Day. (and no, I didn't get it together to send you a card)

P.S. Enjoy the GAME.

Praying...

For as long as I can remember, I have been taught that one should not pray for a particular outcome, but for "the highest good." The idea is that you could never know what god has in store for you (or others), and it is presumptuous to think otherwise.

But I have something in my life that I would really like to have turn out a particular way. All I can see are the reasons why it would be better to go my way. Why on earth god would want me to suffer longer, I have no idea.

Wow.

As I was thinking about writing this post, it was a rant about what I wanted. Now I see the words on the screen, it is reminding me that holding on to "what I want," is probably going to get in the way of actually getting it.

So let me start over...

God, I have this issue I want to resolve. I trust you already know how I am hoping things will turn out. But we've made it this far together, and I know you have my best interests at heart. I will do my best to trust that whatever the outcome is, it will be exactly what I need to grow as a human and to serve you.

I was just about to write. "whatever the outcome, I am sure it will be resolved soon." But then I realized that resolution is part of my wanting something. God may choose to leave it unfinished.

Arrgh.

Must remember to sit in stillness & trust. But I'm not finding it easy. Hmmm.

Is this the part where I ask others for support? Maybe you, too, can pray for my highest good. (FYI, this is not about where we will live, but about something else entirely). Thanks.

Still Waiting...

Boy, after that last post, you'd think I had something exciting to tell you. Alas, it is not to be. We are STILL WAITING. It is somewhat like purgatory... You know you aren't going back where you were before, and you don't know where you're going next, and you can do NOTHING to change anything.

I can (as in T is finally sure enough to allow me to post) say that we will definitely be in one of two places - either here (Houston, Texas, but West instead of South), or there (Lake Charles, Louisiana). We'll know by the end of next week. Or the next.

The plusses for Houston: 1) the job T will have will be new & different & challenging; 2) my professional association has a chapter here; 3) if I decided to work again this is a bigger pond to fish in; 4) the area we are considering is closer in to town & thus closer to lots of stuff; 5) lots of opportunity to Jazzercise; 6) I could continue going to the gym I like; 7) there are two congregations nearby.

The plusses for Lake Charles: 1) we lived there for 6 years & are familiar with it; 2) lots of forest and open space for boys to explore; 3) the yoga center I used to go to still exists; 4) there is Jazzercise there too; 5) I could rejoin the Newcomers club, 6) we could get a lot more house for our money.

The minuses are pretty much opposite of whatever I wrote on the plus side.

But the biggest plus for either of them... I WOULD KNOW WHERE I AM GOING TO LIVE AND COULD GET ON WITH MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (not that I feel strongly about it).